+be ALL eU CaNT BE!+

so long suckers

2008-01-21T05:33:00.001-08:00

http://www.emilinapoe.blogspot.com/

this will be my last post here.

2008-01-19T19:39:00.000-08:00

wow...it's sunday.i've loss track of time

anw!ystd was a fulfilling yet tiring day :)

we went to NLB to finish the dumb edward de bono

i found Edgar Allan Poe Full Collection of Poems & Stories.

&...haha!...erm...

only they know what i did. >_<

"hello edgar allan poe fan."

den 2 bras basah for "Art Enemy" or rather "Money-Gobbling-Shop" to buy art stuff

and than the bookstore [where i bought 2 books!^^ Anne Rice 'Violin' & The Exorcist]

for $9.50.it's old but in great condition.

anw,i love old unused books.i want to give them justice...for being a book.

worth reading for it's contents remains a secret between their covers...

woaah..what am i crapping?

we went to SMU[by that time im quite beat from the load im carrying]

the few art works are great.

but other than tt,it's utter NON-sense

lol!esp we tried to find the artwork in the toilet[or so they said...]

& i wanna push open the guys toilet[thinking the exhibition is inside;

when this dude open the door to see me standing infront.

utter rubbish.hey!jeanne!u didnt send me ur pix near the chandelier...can u send me?:D

i want to edit for u...

anw,the picture below[the 3 gothic pictures of me...] lol

it's lame...bt,the first pix is the first time i edited.

& than, faeezah saw it,& she said she want to edit for me.

so the one with the red cross at the hemns of the skirt is by her...

i find that the cross is gorgeous,but than...maybe a cross is not a gr8 ides[i prefer an inverted one,but NO.it's an insult to Christians,& i respect that]

so i color back the dress black.

now AJ said she want to help me edit some more...

wo0O...so i tell her,we'll edit some pictures & pass it around

edit & edit & edit till the point where u cant edit anymore ^^

arghhhhhh...*stretches*

im still tired.so much to touch-up on my basic drawing book -_-"

mr tan class drawing untterly suck,but it's a challenge :)

2008-01-19T04:41:00.000-08:00

im so tired to the bones.shall update tmr when genie send me more pictures...

2008-01-18T04:35:00.000-08:00

picture post*

my arms can drop off if i do anymore drawing
but nevertheless,i find it quite effective

Edgar Allan Poe-In Youth I Have Known One

_How often we forget all time, when lone
Admiring Nature's universal throne;
Her woods--her wilds--her mountains--the intense
Reply of Hers to Our intelligence!_

I. In youth I have known one with whom the Earth
In secret communing held--as he with it,
In daylight, and in beauty, from his birth:
Whose fervid, flickering torch of life was lit
From the sun and stars, whence he had drawn forth
A passionate light such for his spirit was fit--
And yet that spirit knew--not in the hour
Of its own fervor--what had o'er it power.

II. Perhaps it may be that my mind is wrought
To a ferver [1] by the moonbeam that hangs o'er,
But I will half believe that wild light fraught
With more of sovereignty than ancient lore
Hath ever told--or is it of a thought
The unembodied essence, and no more
That with a quickening spell doth o'er us pass
As dew of the night-time, o'er the summer grass?

III. Doth o'er us pass, when, as th' expanding eye
To the loved object--so the tear to the lid
Will start, which lately slept in apathy?
And yet it need not be--(that object) hid
From us in life--but common--which doth lie
Each hour before us--but then only bid
With a strange sound, as of a harp-string broken
T' awake us--'Tis a symbol and a token--

IV. Of what in other worlds shall be--and given
In beauty by our God, to those alone
Who otherwise would fall from life and Heaven
Drawn by their heart's passion, and that tone,
That high tone of the spirit which hath striven
Though not with Faith--with godliness--whose throne
With desperate energy 't hath beaten down;
Wearing its own deep feeling as a crown.
[Footnote 1: Query "fervor"?--Ed.]

2008-01-16T04:08:00.000-08:00

*edited by emilina! XD lol...
looked unprofessionally photoshop-ped though... -_-
still have much to learn...
look ok from far but will improve on it next time
cz my eyes feels so sore now... *_*
shall not say the venue of which i took this picture. :)
[if u want to know than u should ask ^^ i will answer]

anw,shall start reading Anne Rice Blackwood Manor & the Visual Thinking book[such a bore]
cant wait for spaghetti tmr.no fish n chips or chicken cutlet.very oily :X urghh...
i was waiting for him to say it & he did!i drove him into telling me the truth instead of the cold shoulder that i don't think i deserve.the truth doesnt hurt that bad after all and when i saw the girl at school just now,i feel stronger.her attitude as she walked,well actually she stomped,by me,makes me look up to her & make me stronger than ever.WOW!

eat back your words

2008-01-15T05:16:00.000-08:00

ugly me ugly everyone

2008-01-14T17:38:00.000-08:00

i was half awake because of the argueement i heard in the living room between my mum n my sis.in my half-conscience i could still feel hurt at every word they threw to each other.but who do u think i side?

my sis.

bcz i feel that my parents are bullshitters.
they make me sick sometimes.
have i got the right to say that?
well i think yeah,because i've got the right to think
i grabbed my pillow & covered my ears out from the living hell

zombie

2008-01-14T04:43:00.001-08:00

though after all the junk food i have yesterday,nothing seems to change.i could still feel the ribcage on my chest.but couldnt hear my heart beat.since it went away like you dissipating in thin air.

*anw,i've got GREAT news!!!i found where they sells The Umbrella Academy comic books by Gerard Way!!!it's at the comic shop where i went to seek justice for poor dusty Nee chee...*
*i want to hit myself for mumbling nonsense like "Osama have kidney failure" or "Osama owned an oil refinery & he's rich" or "I like Barrack Obama better".what's wrong with all my 'O-ama' today in Hist Of western art?im declared a lunatic.

disappear now but come back later??

2008-01-13T04:01:00.000-08:00

urghhh...
im living a slob life...
a big fat loser's life...
wanna know what a big fat loser's life is like?
today is junk food day.
3 epok epok & a bottle of peach tea for breakfast.McSpicy meal for lunch & one of my bro's happy meal's nugget.Lays Sour Onion potato chips & more peach tea.
fried mee & fried fishballs which i just ate...

but nevertheless...i had fun playing monoploy with my cousin that came to my house.
and...i dunno.
drown myself in this starch and oil

anw...it's official.im gonna stuff myself with more sugar syrup tt i get fm Macdonalds tmr morning before sch.
yeah school start & im jumping up & down coz im a loser.
it's 9am till 2.50pm.
anw,back to hotcakes syrup,yeah.i got $0.
i dun expect any sympathy or anyone to give me food;coz i dun feel like eating.
i think today's starch is enough to last till tomorrow.haha.
anywayyy...i got to beg for this woman for her Popular card when i realised i had not enough money to pay for my $4.85 sketchbook.
art had always got me into trouble somehow,from almost being kicked out of the National Library to now-begging.
but i hope art will do me justice in the future.
damn everything.

now get lost...

i'll tie myself to a giant kite & show you how to fly

2008-01-12T23:08:00.000-08:00

okay,don't change the channel now.i want to tell u something that happened to me last 2 months ago.just after i got Edward[i named my Vaio,Edward].i told this to my friend,inside the Land Of The Dead arcade game vehicle-since it's out of order so we just sat there- & she was chuckling & shaking her head.Saying that im unbelivable.

Back to the track.So i was damn excited that i got Edward.I moved out my old computer table to replace it into an easy study table that used to belong to my sis.I got out the old dusty ASL modem that i put at the cd compartment of the old computer table to plug into Edward.but than...

--Camera rolling back.As some might know,the old computer table is where my old good PC is.I had hardly any space to do my work.Just a space when i pushed back the keyboard.My table is always a mess.All sorts of garbage & also useful things.Well,as some might know,again,sometimes i kept food without knowing about it.Like the time i said that i kept my seaweed in my drawer so it's soggy.And also the half open oreo & the empty Crunch wrapper.So ants started to appear on my computer table.I don't really mind about the ants so i just let it be.

Months went on.It was in History Of Art class,when Kay were telling us about Dali's work;the one with the ant.& how dali symbolises ants with death.It was amusing to hear that.When i got home,to get ready to do my work,i stared at the line of ants.Examining them.Now no longer scared or shy away from me since i didnt seems to be a threat to them.That im just a silent occupant to this room.That i don't mind them carry their food,sometimes too big of a load for their small body,as they disappear amongst my disarray of stuff on the table.

Back to 2 months ago,i plugged the ASL Modem to Edward.& i realise that ants always came out of nowhere from the modem.Irritated now,i grabbed the vacuum to suck the ants off the modem.But as i was to plug it again,more ants came out from nowhere again.So again i suck it with the vacuum.This happens for a few minutes.I was hungry so i left it on the floor to eat my lunch outside.

When I came back,a whole army of ants where all aound the floor of my bedroom!it was swarming around,some looks even clueless to me.Like they didnt know where is their home or something.I let out a yelp & ran to fetch the insecticide spray.Armed with the 'shotgun',i started to aim it at the billions of ants.The modem right in the middle was quite unrecognisable in the mount of ants.

psssssttttt!!!pssssssssssssssttttt!!!
die all ants!die!breath in the fumes into your little hearts;me in anger
now i realised that the ants had build a nest for months in my ASL Modem!
damn you girl,how could you betray us,they cried.
u fed off on my food that i left on my table so now,who betrayed who?;i hissed...

i sprayed the ASL Modem too.getting rid of the ants took me an hour as more ants always manage to climbed out in the depths of the modem.The depths of the modem where they lay white eggs.

The modem cant survive all this mistreatments.Thus it failed to function...
forevermore!

2008-01-12T05:02:00.000-08:00

lol.final edited by AJ!!!the fingernails is done by me though...i look...*shivers*

i dont know;u tell me

2008-01-10T04:22:00.000-08:00

i trashed in bed
-i cant sleep at all last night
-it's all because of...

i waited for hours
-waiting to see the face that i've yet to see
-but the face never appears
instead there i stood
-in the rain
-with a blister on my foot
-stood for more than 2 hours
& now
-tell me
-am i the biggest idiot ever?
-how could i not cry?
-how could i pretend that im not hurt?
-maybe i wasn't fair to you either
-but-tell me-tell me now.

TELL ME!!!!!!!

what do you treat me as

the ball hit the drain but not the pins...

2008-01-08T18:49:00.000-08:00

my arm ache ache ache from bowling...hmm..
do hope uma n hud cud join us next time.
next time i wan to try pool^^
and than i still have not went to karaoke with Eja & her friends.
huhuhu...but it would be next next week before i could have money...

:( im disgustingly broke!!!i realised tt i overspent -_-
mainly when going out and i have to pay back for the ezlink i make

urgghhH!im left with 13 bucks to last till the 25th.
guess i'll eat the clay in ceramic class
or drink some acrylic paint or oils
i'll grab one of the red paint and squeeze out one huge gloob into my mouth infront of Mr Tan
[would love to see he's expression].
*bugged eyed n ready to faint*
haha..i'll die.
most probably.
maybe i'll go to macdonalds during breakfast hours n ask for a lot of those honey syrup that they use for the pancakes.
yeah..

the next gadget thing i want to have so badly:
canon instant wallet-size pocket printer
i want to print out a lot of photos
i saw somewhere tt it's 99bucks...
yikes.
cz i've limited myself to spending only 200 bucks per mth.
[since i made plans for my future >_<>
LOL. well. i hope i can make it to UK. or anywhere. except asia.
espcecially not SEA.no,not saying asia is bad.but im sick of Asia.

but first things first.i need to drag Eja to buy something with me.haha.just a surprise change for myself. >_<

meoowww!!im a kitty

2008-01-08T03:57:00.000-08:00

*picture credits to anis* ;)
i really loveee it!

The Lovecats lyrics

We move like cagey tigers
We couldn't get closer than this
The way we walk
The way we talk
The way we stalk
The way we kiss

We slip through the streets
While everyone sleeps
Getting bigger and sleeker
And wider and brighter
We bite and scratch and scream all night
Let's go and
Throw all the songs we know

Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I'll show you in spring
It's a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats

We're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty
Oh you know that I'd do anything for you
We should have each other to tea huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up by the fire
And sleep for awhile
It's the grooviest thing
It's the perfect dream

Hand in hand
Is the only way to land
And always the right way round
Not broken in pieces
Like hated little meeces
How could we miss
Someone as dumb as this

I love you ... let's go
Oh ... solid gone ...
How could we miss someone as dumb
As this?

creepy me

2008-01-06T19:53:00.000-08:00

this blog is turning out into a music blog!
oh no no...i wont let that happen.
this is my random crap blog.
so hear my crap OUT LOUD...

So I was tagged by Azimah[like last week XD haha]
Okay...here it goes

Link to your tagger and post these rules. List eight (8) random facts about yourself. Tag eight people at the end of your post and list their names (linking to them). Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

1. i cant find my jeans in the wadrobe when i remembered i stash it in my little drawer with my books
2. i once kept seaweed[the packet ones] for a month in my drawer & half a cadbury choc.
3. i didnt leave my house[or rather my room] for a record of three days because i was mugging for exams.that's 72 hours
4. i finished my dad's one whole bottle of cough medicine & was pretending nothing had happened when mum ask where the medecine was...
5. sadly,im nt a vampire
6. i trash around in my bed for 4hours before i managed to fall asleep
7. i wish to stay in a hospital for a few days[not anything serious...but i just want to feel what staying in a hospital like...]
8. i tried to learn Braille but my sense of sight disobeys me.plus i needed more time in the lift.instead of the 13th floor,maybe a 130th would be sweet.

i kinda like this kind of quizes.
it makes me think things back ^^
so here's my eight ppl:
1)ana banana
2)uma
3)shahira
4)shashah
5)anis
6)jeanne
7)ili
8)hakim
i wont make it compulsory for any of u guys...
maybe it's just to waste time ;)

2008-01-04T21:17:00.000-08:00

do you know that i love uncle charlie chaplin?
i'll never miss his show in Art Central.
im so tired typing down what he said.
so listen.waste some time.

im sorry,but i don't want to be an emperor;tt's not my business i dont want to rule or conquer anyone .i would like to help everyone;if possible. jew,black man...white. we all wnat to help one another. human beings are like that.
we want to live by each other's happiness,not by each other's misery. we dont want to hate or despise one another.

in this world there's room fr everyone.& the good earth is rich. it can provide for everyone. the way of life to be free & beautiful but we have lost the way...
greed has poisoned man's souls has barricaded the world with hate as we step up in misery & bloodshed. we have develpoed speed,but we have shut ourselves in. machines with abundence had left us in want. our knowledge have left us synnical,our cleverness heart & unkind. we think to much,& feel to little. more machinery,we need humanity. more than cleverness,we need kindness and gentleness. without his qualities life will be violent.& all be lost.

the aeroplane & the radio had brought us closer together.the very nature of this invention cries out for the goodness of this man. cries out for universal of brotherhood for the unity of the soul. even now my voice is reaching millions throughout the world. millions of despairing men n women and little children
victims of the system that makes man torture & imprison innocent people
those who can hear me i say,do not despair. the misery that is now upon us is putting the passing of greed. the bitterness of man who fear the way of human progress. the hate of man who will pass,& dictators die & the power that they took from the people, will return to the people and so long as man die,the liberty will never perish

soldiers!dont give yourself to boots! man who despise u and slave u! who regimen ur lives! to tell u what to do,what to think,& what to feel?!
who drill u--uhn,i dun get what he saying] treat u like-uhn?-
...
don't give urselves to this unnatural man!! machine man!with machine minds!& machine hearts! u are nt machines!u are not-uhn?- u are man! u have the love of humanity in your hearts u dont hate or ...
soldiers!dont fight for slavery!fight for liberty!

in the chapter of the book it's written "the kingdom of good is within man,not one man,or a group of man!but in all man,in you you the people have the power
the power to create machines!the power to create happiness! you the people,have the power to make this life free & beautiful to make this life a wondrful adventure & in the name of democracy,let us use that power
let us all unite!let us all fight for a new world! a decent world.that will give a chance for man to work that will make use of the future,old age security
by the promise of these things, but they lie,they do not fullfill this things.
they never will.dictators free themselves,but they enslave the people

now let us fight to fulfill that promise let us fight to free the world
to do away with national barriers to do away with greed.with hate & intolerence
let us fight for a world of reason.a world where science & progress lead to all mans's happiness. Soldiers!in the name of democracy!let us all unite!

if only i were....

2008-01-03T04:25:00.000-08:00

I'd be thinner
I'd be taller
Go clubbing in my collar
With skin pale as a moth
Dressed in black, I'd go creepin'
While the normal folk are sleepin'
If I only were a Goth

With my hair up, I'd look fancy
Like Siouxsie and the Banshees
With silk or velvet cloth
Dressed in boots, never sandals
And the room would be lit with candles
If I only were a Goth

Yes, I'd wanna die
From the bottom of my heart impure
Would I like another clove? Well sure!
And after that we'll go listen to The Cure

I'd pretend to be a vampire
Like in stories 'round the campfire
I'd suck your bloody froth
Yes, the thing I'd be best at
Is impersonating Lestat
If I only were a Goth

In my casket purse I'm toutin'
Einsturzende Neubauten
And pagan hymns to Thoth
Yes, the world would be depressing
Over death I'd be obsessing
An'd this corpse that I'm undressing
Would be sexier, I'm guessing
With my diet I'd get scurvy
And I'd worship Peter Murphy
If I only were a Goth

*national treasure is great ^^*

so is Esprit Rapsberry

feeling trashy!!:D

2008-01-02T19:13:00.000-08:00

so the pictures below is taken from my hp
sorry far,cz last nite u called me for the pictures
i don't know why im so sleepy last night.
hakim paid for the food at Sakura.
we gave him the money to pay him back but he refuses.
the bill is like $45!!??where the hell did he got so much money?
bt thanks la... :) we promise to treat u back
miss everyone of u guys!^^
esp priteeba.so long since we met.
looking forward to the next time we could go out

2007-12-30T05:17:00.000-08:00

please give me a chance to make things right.
please hold on to me like i hold on to you
please...

2007-12-29T08:28:00.000-08:00

hoot hoot...
im a midnight o0Owl.

it 12.30am

i want to start anew.i want you.

2007-12-28T19:11:00.000-08:00

Concrete Blonde - Joey

Joey, Baby- Don't get Crazy,
Detours, Fences,
I get Defensive

I know you've heard it all before,
So I dont say it anymore,
I just stand by and let you fight your secret war.
And though I used to wonder why,
I used to cry till I was dry,
Still sometimes I get a strange pain inside.

Oh, Joey, if you're hurtin', so am I.

Joey, Honey
I'll save all my money
All is forgiven.
Listen, listen.

And if I seem to be confused,
I didn't mean to be with you.
And when you said I scared you,
Well, I guess you scared me too.
But we got lucky once before,
And I don't wanna close the door.
And if you're somewhere out there,
and passed out on her floor.

Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.
(instrumental break)

And if I seem to be confused,
I didn't mean to be with you.
And when you said I scared you,
Well, I guess you scared me too.
But if it's love you're looking for,
Well, I can give a whole lot more.
And if you're somewhere drunk and
passed out on the floor.
Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.

...angry anymore...
...angry anymore...

-beautiful song-
^^

2007-12-28T05:02:00.000-08:00

On my heavy metal Christmas my true love gave to me,
12 silver crosses
11 black mascaras
10 pairs of platforms
9 tattered t-shirts
8 pentagrams
7 leather jackets
6 cans of hairspray
5 skull earrings
4 quarts of Jack
3 studded belts
2 pairs of spandex pants
and a tattoo of Ozzy!

*lol!if i where given a timeframe where i will be born,
i really think that i should be born in the late 70s goin to 80s in america*

''//rockin' out\m/

they died that we might live...

2007-12-27T04:46:00.000-08:00

ok...i seldom take pictures when i go out nowadays...

bt im in a sort of bubbly mood...

...so yeah.ther's the pictures.

the wannabes.haha.

wadever.

*i want tt top on the first picture.i regret not buying it :(*

i want you!^^

world domination

2007-12-26T18:59:00.000-08:00

MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION
-I WANNA ROCK!-
Twisted Sisters!

1) dye my hair black
2) work harder for my future
3) not to self-loathing myself
4) make everyone i love happy
5)cut my hair short n wave/curl it like my original hair
6) to love myself before i love God

chuck me in the washing machine & put me on 'Super Cleaning'

2007-12-26T04:05:00.000-08:00

today went to Queenstown.
it's the 3rd day tt my wallet is lost;still no news.
i lost every hope of ever getting it back.
so i've applied new posb card,
took out almost half of this month's pay;
paid the debts i owe to my parents.
stow the rest in my drawer in case i need it
[which is silly to say tt--of course i need cash!]
borrowed my mum's ez-link b4 i applied for new ones.
yeahh...
i told uma,"well at least we could play at the arcade since i still have my Powercard.haha...my Powercard is so powerful than any credit cards tt's ever made"
she laughed and answer as usual "ur're nuts"

mummy saw it & she asked me what's tt.
i was shocked i should say...
uhnn...haha

back to monday when i lost my wallet.
i guess it was a retribution for being one big silent meanie tt i am.
i open my waddrobe tt afternoon.
take out my jeans & penknife,
& cut at the knee of the jeans.
uma find it amusingly stupid.
my mum gonna throw out tt jeans if she ever gonna see it
[so now i cant stash tt jeans in the washing machine]
i find it...i dunno...
..i mean,i ask myself, "why the hell did i do tt???"

first for cutting it.second for consuming it.third for inhaling it.forth for tt cof-wannabe.
no one will understand what im saying,
but just know,im ashamed for it.
cross my heart im not proud.
on a lighter note.
i amuse myself with thinking of what the police officer was thinking.
'aww..this little angst girl.is she a punk?'
"err...emily the..???--"
"emily the strange wallet.yeah."
retribution.so now im facing it in solemn mood.

I NEED NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!
i love Mystery forever!meow meoww!

why is there no one online???

Sweetblood

2007-12-24T21:58:00.000-08:00

life couldnt get any worse!
when im smiling myself stupid,
i lost my wallet
& now i cant go out at all.
my mum's naggy & wont give me even a penny.

my right arm feels out of my body;aching
serve me bloody right!
i need help.my life is a BIG mess
im pissed
*curse tt bastard or bitch who find & didnt return my wallet
HAHAHAHAHA!!!

***
6.11pm

now im smiling myself stupid[never ask me why]
though i still havent get back my wallet.
sometimes i just feel like my parents should call the doctors
& have me locked up in a padded room with a straightjacket.
anw,hey,i forgot to wish Merry X'mas.
hehh..i noe it's late.
...i've been reading this book,Sweetblood.
the picture of tt pissed off girl below [so u can imagine my pissed off look just now :P]

& i really LOVE it!!!
the book influence me in so many ways.
like introducing me to 2 new bands;
Sisters Of Mercy & Concrete Blonde.
i've yet to listen to their songs...

& new books like Albert Camun's book The Stranger...

& ofcourse,Anne Rice.
i got to have Anne Rice books.it's like the must-have gothic literature

i chg my bed covers from red to my old dark dark maroon.
hehehh...my room look extra gloomy.
i need to complete it with...

yes.Desmodus rotundus,or the infamous Vampire Bat.
a frozen one ofcourse...to put on my table now...
to late for a christmas list :(
it seems like i've always been missing in a lot of stuff.
like things just zoom passing by me but im still dreaming...
i used to see bats in my old primary school. :)

i've yet to finish Twilight.
>_<
im such a book freak.
see that?
cirque du freakkkkKK

p.s:
she manage to tear some of the walls around her
as her loved once called for her again on the other side...

2007-12-23T04:36:00.000-08:00

wow wow wow...

i think this gonna be a long post...

hmmm...

ok2...my mood swing is really up the scale this week[prob bcz of my prd]

anw...im feeling better! :D * i think*

actually quite a lot of things happening.

like 2 weeks ago was Kak Aishah's birthday

& my family celebrated at Seoul Garden for lunch.

i stuffed till i still feel full to eat dinner.

^^ i ate tom yam with a dozen kind of things inside...

than i took a bunch of chicken meat.

from spicy to curry to coffee marinated meat.

wo0hhss!..den i went up again to eat spaggethi.

& again!one more round of the meat.

i like bbq-ing it myself.

i like really cooked stuff so some are abit charred cz i cooked it too long.

i ended the feasting with a bowl of ice kacang & icecream.

oh!plus i had 2 glasses of drinks;peach tea & coke.

now who says i cant eat a lot???

hmmphf!haha...

went to ikea with Saintz & i bought a photo frame

think it's in A2 size.well,it's a bit smaller.

it's purplish-pink!to go with my red wall.

anw,gotta print pictures asap!gotta do a collarge out of it!

well,aftt my life kinda like a blur-ish video...

all thanks to my teenage girlish hormones plus my own self realisation plus a friend.

uhnn..haha?

i went to johor ystd to meet my aunt for aidiladha.

den we went to Jusko since my dad jz gt his pay >_<

ther's a whole lot of sale.Mango stuff all half-price.

same with S'pore.

so i found a shoe!rm185 but less till RM90.

woo...*to myself*

& den my sis wan treat the whle family[e 5 of us] to a movie!!!

so...we watched I Am Legend

i know...m'sia relase date is earlier den s'pore!

to words for tt movie:Freaking Awesome

if u like Resident Evil,u'll like this.

though the movie is really depressing[i felt so depressed watching it]

i love depressing movies

& today my mum need to buy sch uniforms for my bro

so we went to ochard[with sis]

goddamn it's so crowded.

& i bought Stephenie Meyer[top pic] book Twilight!

awwww!!!damn.have been wanting this book!

Miriam will be delighted to know tt i have this book.

schedule gonna be tight[i think]

thurs got a date with far,uma,ili n hakim[hopefully it's confirmed]

i bought canvas paper today.

i really feel like painting all of a sudden.

paint wad?anything...mayb

anything tt come through this crazy brain God had given me;

well,at least i have a brain;thank God.

or im locking myself away in my room,

on my bed eating lasagna,

reading about vampires & blood all day.

my life's pretty much wasted.

i know.

i dont really care...

well,this few days when my mood is really sickly blue,

i realised tt thinking happy thoughts can really make up ur day.

instead of being grumpy all the time.

so..im gonna smile myself stupid from now on

* i told whoever it may be reading this junk tt it's a long post.so Get Lost.it ends here*

2007-12-21T17:57:00.000-08:00

u know...it's strange
how a red brick wall seperates to person apart.
it's when the heart no longer connects to each other
than the red brick wall starts to build slowly upwards.
it's the same.
when the wall had build to the point where they could no longer see each other
the connection breaks.
unless the person or both person on each wall wants to make it right once more; than they'll tear the red brick wall down.
now she and the people who knew her is building a wall all around
but it's a mistake,because u really need someone.
anyone.
so she banged her fist on the red brick walls...
but it's hard & frozen.
she slammed her fist till she see red red red.
nothing but red
than there's the stray of light through a tiny hole.
which alarms her,but she quickly breath through it.
even a tiny hole can at least give her a ray of life.

it's raudhah's a year death anniversary

2007-12-20T18:46:00.000-08:00

i still see red...
but now there's white crystals forming
interwining with the red
creating red ruby;a birthstone
but it falls from my grasp
And broke on the white tiled floors
staining it.
-emilina allan poe

hmm...talking about pouring your heart out.

2007-12-19T03:28:00.000-08:00

today got me thinking so hard tt my head hurts.

well,to start with.i receive my nafa results.

i got all C[60-69marks] & Hist of VA & NIE B[70-79]

well..i did pass!thank god.

but i need to do better..

cz i wish to skip the 5yrs bond & study overseas b4 taking the 5yrs course.

it's seems impossible,bt mayb if i work really hard,i could get a scholarship...

hmmm...it wont be easy... :(

uma got wore her new boots today!nice

met my parents at CP & they wanted to go to the mosque to see the lambs.

i joined.so ther's the lamb on top.

one lamb kept looking at me

bt o0hhh!!the smell.

& i just ate burger king with uma just now.

i spit out the feeling of nauseousness on the grass.

i didnt enter the mosque though my mum gave me a headscarf;

i was stubborn.i feel...i dunno...not so close to god...

& it's like i dont even care...

wth is wrong with me?

i believe in the faith tt i was borned with,i dun deny tt.

went to Changi beach.been going ther for so many years

my parents love tt place so they bring me there sometimes.

so i'll just sit on the bench...or my feet will take me to the swings or climb that big tree.

yes...i think im the oldest girl who could really swing very high

i could beat all the little brats-haha...

wadever.the tide is high

& water splashed as though its trying to gobble me up for all the things i've done.

so im thinking about a whole lot of stuff

hey...i could think all the way to Pluto...

well,so u could really see pluto from Changi beach says the monument.

& i learn this,with just reading the information once.that;

Pluto or also Hades is the furthest planet from the sun

& it's core is melted ice made from methane n nitrogen oxide & some other gases.

it's called Hades,means after Roman mythology for god of disaster[if im nt wrong]

it's called tt as pluto is the darkest & coldest planet.

a spacecraft is already on the way to Pluto but it would only reach in mid 2015.

[yeah!freaking 2015!?so u could imagine how FAR it is]

& it got me thinking...about God.

i feel tt even freethinkers will turn to God in times when they need someone more than anything...

wadever God they believe in.

my sis's nagging to use the internet.

damn for not having wireless connection.

2007-12-18T18:39:00.000-08:00

everything is red to me
i see red in my eyes
& in my mind...
i see red on my arms
i see red on my fingers
i see red on my face
than i feel red in my mouth
so i see red in the sink

don't freak out!
it's just a joke u guys!
haha...hmm...
was quite excited when i read about the skateboarding class..
www.skateboarding.sg
i mean,emily loves skateboarding
it's just awesome to go over railings n ramps.
get hurt n bruises;tt i dont give such a damn...
plus i know skating but don't know skateboarding.
such a bummer.
my bro do have a skateboard bt for god's sake i suck at it
so i give up.
bt will mama give me the consent?
god.im meant for the flies...

tmr is aidiladha.
the sacrificial day.

i got to shop b4 christmas sales ends.
mama says at Jusko,Johor,ther's 50% discount at Mango.
damn!tt's awesome!i wanna go!

well,got to get ready soon.

"Photographic Memory" Emilie Autumn

You're not so far away
Your sitting in the space between the night and day
And so I'll wait for the sound of your footsteps
The tea that's brewed too strong
The part of me that's waited patiently for oh so long
At least I try
But I'm relying
On my photographic memory
While painfully realizing
It's not all that it's cracked up to be
And falling's just another way to fly
I wonder why it's never easier than
The first time

2007-12-17T05:03:00.000-08:00

pictures post:

im more of a mystery ^^

& o0h..i really need to visit a comic book store

cz i NEED & HAVE to have the Umbrella Academy comic books!!!

super lazy to blog about anything else now...m hanging around Dark Horse comics myspace...

***

new post:anis started me thinking after her post of her world map &...

good fuck!!!guess wad?!i dwld google earth.a software Mr Lee showed us last year in hist class..the whole world[even the outer space] is in my hands now!

muahahah!

WORLD DOMINATION!!!

i obey you that u bow to me now!

haha...well,u know im just crazy...

anw!i cant believe im flying from stinky singapore[ops!haha] to new jersey to paris to germany!!!

cant wait to watch the Omen 3 i borrowed ystd.

& shit!ther's Omen 4:the awakening!

thought tt i would have finished the series...

duuhhh...

think i'll start doing the outer space map of stars & planets now...

actually i've always like to draw maps when i was young,

lt alone an outer space map of stars n milky way??!

im doubly excited

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2007-12-14T19:43:00.000-08:00

it's really true tt gerard is married!

the wife is Lyn Z,bassist frm Mindless Self Indulgence

disappointed?

am not la!wth?haha

mayb a little[haha]wth?

duhhh

cz he used to be a gr8 influence in my life;in LIFE,music n art

hey,he dont know me bt im greatful for what he had thought me

bt it's like...u dun noe whether ur're living in reality or ur own fantasy.

bt i've woke up fm tt fantasy of mine since beginning of this year.

& im so happy now,cz god send me this dude below to rock my life

*chuckles*

2007-12-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

cancer
most amazing kisser very high appeal love is one of a kind very romantic most caring person you'll ever meet entirely creative extremely random and proud of it freak spontaneous great at telling stories not a fighter but will fight if pushed over limit someone you should hold on to.

well am i all of the above?someone tell me

:) today gonna accompany dear mum go out with her...
u know...being a mum quite sux.especially if ur children had all grown up & ur a housewife.
u want to go out,but ur other friends have their own families to attend to.
so the only thing is to just have the same routine everyday.
cook n clean cook n clean.
it's very lonely.sacrifice.

8.50pm

am back!& m i nuts?bt try listen to this songs...

nur nilam sari

sandarkan pada kenangan

2007-12-12T18:47:00.000-08:00

Desert Song (Demo) Lyrics

*the cure to any bitterness in my heart*

We hold in our hearts the sword and the faith
Swelled up from the rain, clouds move like a wraith
Well after all, we'll lie another day
And through it all, we'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come to stare or wash away the blood?

Well tonight, well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime, in my head

Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
From the lights to the pavement
From the van to the floor
From backstage to the doctor
From the Earth to the morgue, morgue, morgue, morgue

Well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime in my head

All fall down
Well after all...

me & uma :P

max pavillion-cancer

max pavillion-helena

2007-12-12T03:44:00.001-08:00

now she knows what it feels like to be in estacy.
flashes of bright lights spin in & out of her eyes
everyone's screaming the hell out of them but she
can only hear the thumping of her heart
working up a good sweat & her head's pounding
but there's that hands around her to always be there.
a dream withing a dream...

***well,the funny thing about ystd was
1)the long hair girl tt got carried and she were like a ragged doll swinging her head around as gerard screams.
2)the little girls who was infrnt of the pit but give up and started pushing themselves to the back;
their faces pale & sweaty of the mad push
a tragic affair indeed.hope they'll come again
i will get the pictures fm syg's fren,ray,soon :)

the ones on top is from mcr buzznet.
they're ystd's one.

2007-12-10T20:35:00.000-08:00

brrr...it's so cold today.
i mean,it's been cold for the whole week.
no complains.i rather the weather be raining n cold rather than blazing hot.
hope u recover fast syg!...haisss...

i seriously had a sleeping disorder,strangely,during the holidays.
sch term i wud usually crash right into bed.
bt now i have to toss n turned in my bed for 3 hours!
its really frustrating.
im sick of the ceilling & the wall tt i've been staring ad all night.
i think i have to paste posters or -haha- a plasma tv overhead so i cud jz look up n never lie bored in the darkness.
or i hope someone cud shoot my head brain dead
bt den of course,a miracle wud take me to wake up in the morning...

think will go back to sch this week for the assignment.
blah!

2007-12-10T04:20:00.000-08:00

*screams*

meeting syg tmr!it's been almost a week...

hmmm...listening to ur voice!ahh..

:D &.....omg!

omg.jz freakin excited.

wayyyy too excited i cud pee.

anis say she cud puke back her dinner.

i cud just jump out my bedroom 13th storey window

seriously.

i could do jz tt.

bt dun worry,i will nt smack the ground.

ther's enuf butterflies in my stomach to hold me up like Adam Sandler in "little nicky"

2007-12-08T18:25:00.000-08:00

im online in the morning!...
was looking forward to an email like an early christmas present bt stupid hotmail had something wrong with it....
or my email's been spam???god no!..
:( will try again ltr...

so anis told me to watch the kl video of mcr...
god!the girls r just dumb...
ok2...IF i we're there.pls god,dun let me lose it.
hee....gerard's hair black. ^^

my favorite gothic girl!!!
^^ emilie autumn!
o0h...she so sexy!
the new song i put is acutally the soundtrack for the movie Saw2!

2007-12-08T04:24:00.000-08:00

finally!!!i love my new blogskin!
been working on it since ystd...
urghh...
i finally found the perfect picture,the girl with the drums.
it really feel like me!
i mean,if u see the animated drawing of my imaginary self & tt girl;
it's quite similar...
...& the first time i sat on a drum set when i was a percussionist,
i was also like "wtf?...how do i drum?"

anw,i welcome the black parade...
can i go can i go???
arrgghhhh!!!...
u know...every individual will feel tt a particular song was like written out for him/her....
ther's just this kind of feeling tt u'll never be ever sick of the song.
& tt the song will always touch u deep in ur heart tt anyone hardly see.
well,tt's how i feel towards Helena ^^
forever helena...
i know it's shitty to this kind of touchy.
bt helena is made for emilina!
weeeeeeeee!........

2007-12-07T03:54:00.000-08:00

:'(

cant wait for tuesday to come

fiuhh...my heart feels so heavy.

wish the days will breeze like the wind.

been gluing my face to this screen for so many hours watching Family Guy.

Stewie is just the kind of baby i would like to have.

i wonder when anis would be back?
hehe ^^ i miss her!
mr tan send an assignment via email[well,he miss me out!]
dunch noe y....is it bcz he wanna sue me cz of my email add???
the 666 part?...hmm...

hey ho!im getting better in photoshop now.
no no helps.i practically clicked on everything & explore myself.

so i chged my blogskin!^^
n the word Graibstein[german] meant gravestone
& necropolis is another word for cemetery
dont ask me why i name names like tt

2007-12-04T23:12:00.000-08:00

guess im still using the damn PC!& now it's in my living room so everyone in the living room can see what ur're doing on the com...[bt ther's no one ard me now] i mean,my room's computer table is brought outside to the living room,& my sis's ikea table was brought inside my room for my laptop.the great thing is,finally i have a 'real' place to do my work.[cz last time im living off the keyboard space]the laptop's in my room cz my sis nt yet give me the singnet password.grrrrrRR!!which gives me the reason to type in one paragraph instead of the usual spaces cz im darn pissed.she promised to help me tonight.she better do.i want to breath in back the money i invest on tt laptop.

haha

ystd went to nadia's bthdae chalet at costa sand pasir ris.
the pictures will b posted *when!my laptop's internet connection can work...
& i've YET to buy tickets..
what's wrong with me?i burnt my toast 3 times in a row
*there's more deeper meaning in it*

2007-12-03T01:46:00.000-08:00

hey ho!
ever wondered why u feel life sometimes is 6 feet under the ground
& another moment your above everyone's head?
i've got no idea myself.
bt...all i noe is i bought VAIO laptop yesterday!
weee...[for it]
wuaaa...[for my bank] feel a big pinch in my butt,really.
today went to parkway with syg
to upgrade but the dumb harvey norman says tt the stock not yet come.
it will come on wednesday.she told me to call them first.
really sucky.was a little down-spirited
but den he bought for us Auntie Anne's pretzel & slacked ad starbucks[o0h!i bought frappucino javachip]
^^ & was really cheered & he helped me do the wireless connection
so we cud watch hard Gay [lol!] & Ares & a few anti-virus software
really superr happy!
thx so much for everything...
[so much for the 22nd century high-tech girl]HAHA!
e picture below we took using the webcam & den i "sort of" "edited" it using photoshop.
the reason with the ".." is bcz i really not sure how to use photoshop.
such a dumb-ass monkey!
it seems tt my eye bags r more worse den it already is!
*chuckle*
btw,im still blogging using my PC,not yet chg all the bunch of wires yet.

adios!get lost!

p.sssCREAM:happy birthday to ANIS who's suntanning at Bali hot beach now,maybe among hot ang moh guys! ^^ heheee!

u guys can check out ana banana's bloggy i helped her make the other day she come to my house when i totally lost my voice!have to talk to her through "notepad" lol.

http://ana-ladylike.blogspot.com/

2007-11-29T03:32:00.000-08:00

hehe...
finally i watched the Trance shuffle moves in YouTube tt syg told me 2 watch.
here's this guy who dance really great!
http://www.youtube.com/user/JakeGisbanGin
:)

hmm....my voice is totally gone.
it's sucks when u wanted to say something but u couldnt.
:( & i cant sing infrnt of the computer now as im typing this.
but the good thing is that my running nose had gone away,
my throst isnt itching like crap like in the morning
& i dont have cold sweat anymore.
i feel weak still though,after a day of --teehee--shopping.
my eyes refuse to close so here i am typing slowly...
yeahhh....very slowly...
i bought a white top[bless me,for once,im a freaking angel this christmas]
no black no.
bt as i reached home,my mum[urgghhh!]--she always gives bad comments about what i buy.
& she said i look like a pregnant woman in the top.
which is some sort true.
o000hhh...wtf...*groans*
bought a purple pump shoes & gold bangles.
& o00hh...a sketchbook!!
i've pasted stickers on it alrdy.cant wait to spoil it up w ugly drawings though...
...hmm...
for the first time i know what it's like to be mute!
this sucks like a snowman shit.

2007-11-27T04:20:00.000-08:00

im having a bad fever.my body's aching.ouch.

2007-11-23T03:47:00.000-08:00

reply to faeezah's tag: wahh...lu nak potong tangan gua lu tai long ah?hah!?lu nak gantong gua tangan kat pintu mana?

Laughing Out Loud
anis will get the joke too. ^^

so...tmr i'll go
my mum say we'll leave ad 6.30am.
woo...tt's damn early.
but i don't care.
i'll stay up late as possible & so i could sleep in the car.
i think my classmates would be doing Kallang Waves on this sunday.
lol again!
im in a bubbly mood now.

i just replied Miriam's email. here's some infamous snippets.

so what do u put on the snowmen? :D
carrots olives & a wool scarf?
god,i cant believe i only see people building a snowmen on tv.T_T

^^
i heard about dark sanctuary too..
--wow!i just saw a BRIGHT BIG moon outside my window.
it's light is from the sun;so it's shining real bright and full.
i saw u put the Beauty & The Beast at ur myspace!
i agree with u tt it's a beautiful song
i first listened to it last year and was blown away!

im going to Malaysia ,Kuala Lumpur for a vacation for 4 days
with my family and my cousin..
we're going to this gigantic shopping mall tt have an indoor themepark in it.
woo...i really have a thing about roller coasters.
but once i try one,i felt like im gonna die...

so i watched Saw 4.which was rated R21 here...
i already watched saw 1 & 2...
and this thought goes through my mine...
i think everyone had thought about suicide sometimes...
...and the reason why Jigsaw chose his victims is because the victims felt tt ther's no point in living anymore...
& i was thinking if tt's the reason[people thinking about suicide];
i think Jigsaw would have been a very busy person coming up with new instruments of torture for millions of people who thinks of suicide around the world...
& i wonder tt Jigsaw will be so so busy that he become so stressed up tt he finally,committed suicide himself...
...
do u think what my i think is lame??
but i don't know why i think about this stuff.
after i think about this,i was really getting paranoid tt Jigsaw will be lurking around my house waiting to get me.

i pity her for getting such a retard for her email pal.
but you know what?
she introduce me to this artist;Victoria Frances.
it's in Espagnol though.but it's GOTHIC!
& the paintings are...wow.
yeah...tt's the word.
wordless.
http://www.victoriafrances.es/

im gonna miss u people reading my worthless blog though u didnt tag in here but it's okay.

to anis again!
i found Cirque De Soleil CDs for only $5 per CD!!!!
want to haul some home???

to him,im gonna miss you like crazy

2007-11-22T04:45:00.000-08:00

the little things i need to bring for KL trip[so i don't forget]:
1) sleeping bag[no2...im not camping outdoors.im in the hotel]
2) PSP charger n hp charger
3) mystery.
4) money[duhh...]
5) IC
6) toothbrush

i dwld Limewire n dwld as many eisregen,sonata arctica and emilie autumn songs enuf to blast a troop of army.
den i delete back limewire.
ahakz
>_<

2007-11-21T21:35:00.001-08:00

umm...this song is for uma...
i dunno how u'll react to this song;
but i used to cry over it.
i dunno if it would help u feel better or worst.
but it made me feel better...
somehow.
it's like not waking up in a bad bad nightmare.
but time will help.

2007-11-21T03:23:00.000-08:00

so finally today i did some chinese ink try-outs...
the end results...

the one with the person yelling was actually a mistake-i hate it bcz the ink turned out so dark...but then i turned it till it become....something i can be at least a little happy about...
overall,it sucks.

Thus this winter long

and she bled in this winter
the blizzard thundering above her head
shall she just lay down now on this frozen water burial?

Oh this beauty,such a pity.
rotting like a dead rose
but shall she surrender in Death;
--in thought, that can alone
overthrone the empire

shadows crept,there she wept
the moon is hanging & she feels lonely,
but not totally alone.
as the enigmaticals of the universe.
where Celestials and even Lucifer roams...
it is still ruled by One.

from the One that made her,
and to the One she returned...
and from her mother's womb she was born to Earth
and to earth she returned-
in the Necropolis;where the dead sighs...

what's all this artsy-fartsy tt's gotten in me???

2007-11-20T04:27:00.000-08:00

anyone happening here in my blog must be extremely bored to death that they could cry.
no worries...go listen to The Cure video "Close To Me" and u'll be amused by it.
dun worry,its worth wasting ur time.

hehh...i feel it's a dumb thing to post in german when no one understands what im blabbering about...
i was saying tt im planning to take painting lesson[but still no idea where yet]
i planned to go to Sengkang community club & see what do they have...
or i want to ask jeanne how this artist taught her watercolor b4...
hmm...
who wants to join me are welcome.
& i said i miss him alot.
& i say tt dont worry,i didnt type tt whole german out on my own...
haha!i went to this website with english to german translation
>_<
CHEATER!
CHEATER!
but anyhoo...im really fueld up to learn how to WRITE german...
not talk german.
im so tongue-tied trying.
& my mouth gets tired fast & sometimes spit just shoot out
[eww]haha!
anis can do it though!she's really good at it.

will be going KL on this saturday!
weeeeeeee...
2 days KL.1 day port dickson...
will be going with hafizah but she'll live in another hotel cant get the same one but we'll be going to tt indoor amusement park cum gigantic shopping mall tt im gonna slack like a heaping monster drinking none other than starbucks and shop for new shoes tops sketchbook sketchbook for uma and more more more!
fiuuuhhHH!
almost no breath.
but life is frustratingly monotonous.well...mayb my whole life is monotonous.
thx to mine «kjære» foreldre
hmm...no one is suppose to understand tt.
but 2 person always made my day!!
lalalaaa...
*GRINS*

btw,i manage to upload ...Und Sie Blutete Nur Einen Sommer Lang at my imeem!
weeeee....
so here's the lyrics!to you Satanist!
hmm....mayb i should cross tt word out.
cz i wouldnt call myself a Satanist nor i want to make someone into a Satanist...
mayb i shall say "to you Black Metal songs lovers"
duhhh...

Nie werd ich ihn vergessen - den Sommer vor drei Jahren
Der wrmste Sommer seit ich denken kann
Bei Nacht herrschte die schwle Hitze
Die das Nachtgewand am Krper kleben lie
Diese Taubheit durch die Wrme
Die den Geist benebelt
Und dich glauben macht
Dass dein Blut kochend durch den Krper fliet
Als ich wieder keinen Schlaf fand
Trieb ich ruhelos durch die Straen
Dann traf ich sie im bleichen Mondlicht
Sie sprach mich an und ich erstarrte
Und sie nahm mich bei der Hand
Und fhrte mich in ihr schwarzes Wunderland
Bald hatten wir den Wald erreicht
Die Stadt lag weit zurck
Und nur die Nacht war Zeuge
Als ihr Spiel begann...
Die schwle Luft in meinen Lungen
Und ihr Geschmack auf meiner Zunge
Dann lag das Messer in ihrer Hand...
Und sie fing an sich zart zu schneiden
Ein Netz aus warmen Rot
Verzierte ihren nackten Leib
...
und sie blutete fr mich, einen ganzen Sommer lang
Sie fhrte meisterlich die Klinge,
Die das Lied des Schmerzes sang
Jede Nacht war das Leid unser beider Lohn
Die Narben trug ich gerne als Zeichen dieser Religion
Ich konnte es kaum erwarten, bis der Tag der Nacht verfiel
Denn dann endlich konnte es beginnen, das Messerspiel
Stund um Stund ffneten wir unsere Krper
Bis das Licht des neuen Tages den Reiz vertrieb
So verlief der wrmste Sommer, seit ich denken kann
Noch heut trag ich stolz die Narben, mein ganzes Leben lang
Eines Nachts, bei Regenschauer, endete das Liebesspiel
Der letzte Schnitt an ihrem Krper war wohl endgltig zu viel...
Und das Leben troff in langen Bahnen aus ihrem Leib
Ein letztes Lcheln, dann war es an der Zeit
Sie schloss die Augen, und ging fr immer fort
Mit Trnen in den Augen verlie ich diesen Ort
Wo sie lag auf einem Netz aus rotem Lebenssaft ...
Nie werd ich vergessen -
Den Sommer vor drei Jahren
Der schnste Sommer, seit ich denken kann
Bei Nacht herrschte die Klinge
Die das Leben strmen lsst
Diese Taubheit durch Blutarmut
Die den Geist vernebelt
Und dich trumen lsst
Wenn dein Blut den Boden nsst

2007-11-18T20:31:00.000-08:00

this post is in German.
though their might be some mistakes.
i think.

So...ich hat gebohrt ich nur könnte weinen!
Was fickt das? ...
Ich verspreche mich selbst, anstreichene Lektionen mit Uma in einem Gemeinschaftklub einzunehmen...
Bald.
Wir werden zu einem Gemeinschaftklub gehen und werden sehen,
welcher lesons sie dort haben.
Ich verpasse Baby damit viel.
:‚(
Kann jetzt ich nicht warten, zu K. L weil von dieser Langeweile zu gehen, die scheint, mich in Rubindüsterheit zu verurteilen. Sorgen Sie sich, ich nicht habe geschrieben alle von dies aus allein nicht. Ich bin zu einem Gewebe mit
Englisch zu deutscher Übersetzung gegangen.
Aber he hoo...
Ich habe entschieden, Deutsch ZU SCHREIBEN,aber nicht, Deutsch ZU REDEN.
Anis kann es machen..
mit den ganzen Beleidigungen und Stoff meine Zunge ist Zunge hat gebunden! Haha...
Tschüs.

2007-11-18T01:43:00.000-08:00

im busy.
busy doing nothing.
get lost.

i wish there's a reunion for the 3 of us.
she msg-ed me the other day n said how much she missed me.
will soon.
im sorry if i hurt any of u...
mayb by not contacting each other or wad so ever.

2007-11-16T04:23:00.000-08:00

PADA PROJECT DONE!

me presenting my piece...
"sweet dreams bad dreams wet dreams......."i said.
for the sadistic painting of me being suck in my bed.
where the hell did the wet dreams came from???!
and also as i said it's my future struggle in life,
suvitha heard jeanne blurted out "future!?"
wondering whether my future is really to be sucked in my bed in agony.
nyahahahaaaa.
and also my friends.and myself.i didnt know how maniacal it turned out to look.im even scared of it.
tt's y i told people i pity my parents for getting such a crazy girl.
and the painting extreme below is also me waking up to see 17 years have gone.my birth time 0253.n tt's the phantom of the opera mask.
and also raudhah passed away ad around 2 am too...
...
and the moon cz it's always there when i looked out of the window from my bedroom.
and Juneo[my lecturer] was laughing and telling me,
"u better show ur future husband that every morning u wake up,u look like tt"
haa...wadever...typical nonsensical humor from him.
~~but im goin to miss him la!~~

today...
no comments.
it's okay!i just hope everything's okay..
i dont ever want to retake everything especially my visual element!
should i pass it to wani to pass it to gerard...
??? lols!

yes baby...i'll look like this at u every morning.

mayb everyday.im inside ur room now!

*chucky chuckles*

yeo0wW!!

2007-11-12T19:05:00.000-08:00

hmmm...ad sch lib.i cant keep this mind shut.sometimes im even afraid of it.guess wad's on my mind now?u guys know the fat lady librarian around 40s in the sch lib?the other day wen i was wearing the Scream mask 4 Hell-oween,she was pointing right ad my masked face saying about sticking her stupid round white stickers on my scream mask's eyes.n she kept pointing on my face n everyone's looking.mayb everyone's thinking tt this Scream girl could just slash this lady any moment.which i am going to do soon if she didnt shut up.so she's ther ad the counter today.n she's Britney Spears now.cz she's wearing this white shirt tt semi-see-through.n it reaches just till below her belly button.n as she walked,i could see her granny underwear high up her tight jeans.
...
SHUT ME UP SOMEONE!
slap me.kick me.burn me.
*screams*
*screams*
*screAMS*

uma...cheer up.
dun let this affect u bt to make u stronger
i've gone through it b4.
:)

hey everyone!im so proud of myself cz i alrdy watch Saw 4
n im nt scared of it...
hmm...mayb cz the video cant really see properly???...
wadever.
my sis got Saw 1 ad home!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!...
---
8.35pm.
in no mood to do anything but just sit here in the dark n stare ad the ceiling n listen to this song

Close To Me

I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me

Just try to see in the dark
Just try to make it work
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath
And wait until I shake...

But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream

I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me

But if I had your face
I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door
Was a dream

2007-11-11T05:04:00.001-08:00

yargghhh!!!
m i slacking?
i watched 2 more movies today...
Game Plan in the morning...& 30 Days at the evening...
& i do my PADA...n half a face for VE...
time catching up!
i've gotta finish this 2nd piece by if possible,TOMORROW!
den i can start on the canvas for 3 more days...
VE another 30%!i need 2 more faces!
gotta touch-up n mount the printmaking n basic drawing tmr!
ceramics gonna do on tuesday!
gotta take the soil fm the garden below n some wires from shana!
gotta buy 3 more art folios!
argghhhhHHH!!!!

hey...i can make it.
stop.gasp.watching.gasp.movies.gasp.
chuckles

2007-11-10T05:36:00.000-08:00

so...anis gimme this website so u can watch free movies n tee vee shows...
http://www.free-tv-video-online.info/
i watch Little Nicky for like the dozenth time.n Resident Evil again!^^
i've yet to watch Saw 4...
woo00O...
haha...
will watch it in the daylight with nee chee n polar bear beside me on my beddy...

my room is my refuge.
hardly leave it today.
n i also dun wan to see the people outside...
hmm...
good thing i have almost everything in my room except for a telephone,a mini fridge n a toilet.
if not,i wouldnt even step out to the living room to fill this never-ending hungry stomach nor to release this bladder.
i pulled down my curtains n sit painting my PADA for 3 hours till 7pm.
by den,my room is so dark tt i couldnt see the color i was mixing.
my fingernails still have tt dried white paint on it.
lazy to scrap it off.
however i got an affair with my brush today..
chuckles...yup."affair"
cz dun now y today i feel so happy by the way i paint.
it turned out pretty well...well...at least to me.
wadever...
metalkcrapudunlisten.
get lost.

2007-11-08T04:20:00.000-08:00

tt's our new baby Mystery...

hmm...
again...not many will understand...
but just noe if im back at being 9 years old,
i might be the first girl who will break singapore's record for school mass killing
like the new mass killing in that Finnish school...

2007-11-07T19:03:00.000-08:00

dark deepavali greetings from Emilina...

okay...firstly yesterday was the most embarressing thing in this 17 years i've lived.
syg...i think u know...
bt u didnt say it out.
arrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHahahahaha!!!!
i kept laughing alone in my room infront of my A1 PADA project,
with a brush in my hand...
cackling infront of my painting at midnight...
wtf?!
omgf...it was a terror!
never mind...other's dun understand fully...

***
now tt the link to us has been broken..
i think it's my fault too.
mayb im selfish..
now i love n hate mcr.
bcz it was our link and also seperation...
did what i said is true about the seperation?
deep inside i hope not.

my new fav band...Placebo...
really strange lyrics and music videos...
other songs recommended are "Johnny And Mary" and "Bigmouth Strikes Again"

Placebo -36 Degrees Lyrics

We were tight, but it falls apart as silver turns to blue.
Waxing with a candlelight, and burning just for you.
Allocate your sentiment, and stick it in a box.
I've never been an extrovert, but i'm still breathing.

Someone tried to do me ache (it's what I'm afraid of)

With hindsight, I was more than blind, lost without a clue.
Thought I was getting carat gold, and what I got was you.
Stuck inside the circumstances, lonely at the top.
I've always been an introvert
happily bleeding.

Someone tried to do me ache (it's what i'm afraid of)

4 7 2 3 9 8 5 - I gotta breathe to stay alive,
and 1 4 2 9 7 8 - feels like I'm gonna suffocate.
14 16 22 - this skin that turns to blister blue.
Shoulders toes and knees, I'm 36 degrees,
shoulders toes and knees,I'm 36 degrees,
shoulder toes and knees, I'm 36 degrees,
shoulders toes and knees, I'm 36 degrees.

***
wondering why me uma n anis was laughing about when we entered VE class?
watch this...

2007-11-03T05:53:00.000-07:00

my favorite....FOREVERMORE!
lullaby-the cure

watch this,or i shall kill you!

placebo-36 Degrees

2007-10-31T18:20:00.000-07:00

IN THE NAME OF HELL!!!
the massacre of DAT1'07!!!

tt's me.Miss Little Scream terrorising...& rockin' out!

huda looks so cute in the mask!

nyahaha...

rachel so cheeky...heehee

ouch..

lol...

21st century juliet & barbiedoll

dead but still talking...

so pretty gypsy girl...

the class!

eh wrong!y m i smiling when im gonna be killed by the -aRR..-Shana the Pirate

dead bride ^^

gimme back my phone...i wan to call my mummy...

yash don't know how to kiss the Scream...

faeezah the birthday girl ystd![she lost her voice aft she screamed wen she saw me ad Escape themepark the other day...]

killing but still trying to eat marshmalows...

kay refuse to take with a picture with me with the mask on...

so i have to take it out...lol

"Oh Rahim my Romeoo..."suvitha' LOL

borrowed shana's hat

cute little devil Nadiaaa

shana with the mask ^^

candice with the mask... "sorry i killed u..."sobs...heheheheee

666 the number of the beast!!!,i yelled. diana digging the scream flat nose...

killings of the day!

god...so tired killing yesterday...nvm!will be looking forward to next year's HELL-oween!

i took 45 damn mins to do this post... T_T

got to get ready 4 NIE!

2007-10-30T03:40:00.000-07:00

if Edgar Allan Poe is my father, Lord Tennyson is my godfather.
he kick ass too...

In Memoriam A.H.H, VII
Dark House,by which once more I stand
here in the long unlovely street,
Doors, where my heart was used to beat
So quickly, waiting for a hand,

A hand that can be clasp'd no more-
Behold me, for I cannot sleep,
And like a guilty thing I creep
At earliest morning to the door.

He is not here;but far away
The noise of life begins again,
And ghastly thro' the drizzling rain
On the bald street breaks the blank day.

2007-10-30T03:07:00.000-07:00

start from today...

i was the baby tuek.hehexx...

we need the trolley to bring our big ceramics stuff down for firing.

i was lazy to walk so i sat on it n my friends push it.

me last night...stress with my basic drawing.

uma's revenge after i scared her with tt fake rubber snake.

me wearing the blackMagneto...it sucks.

cant fit my head.

n Saint's massacre

the freak...

freak football head

freak emily freak freak.

freaks...

hari raya...

hell!hakim gonna kill me for posting tt embarresing picture of him.

bt do u ppl noe tt man have woman alleles?

so actually in every man,there's a little woman in them...

"im eating my half-eaten-since-friday Oat's & Honey Granola Bar while trying to upload photos..."

wth?haha...

im so good in keeping food inside my bag unknown.

stupid blogger!

if ur not a freak.

den Get Lost!

2007-10-29T16:09:00.000-07:00

okay...dunno wad happen to blogger or my internet connection.
i cant upload photos...
sigh!...wdh...
anw,i shall summarise...
went out jln raye on sat w far hakim ili n uma...
den saint call me to his aunt's n uncle's hse...
it was really fun...seriously.
i wish my family was like tt. :)
bt anw,i bring saint to my bro's bbq open hse...
eat till so so full!den daddy drop by sent him home.

sunday...do my work...
went to grandma hse...
n it's yana's bthdae on tt day!

monday,went to uma's shop...
the father was late n we went off to eat LJS...
instead of... haha...wadever...
n more den half the class was goin to search for hallow-een costumes.
really cool ah!n they call saint to join.
^^ bt shit.sorry tt i have to go off first..
i find tt my classmates rocks.
im so doubly bubbly happy!:D

n TRIPLY devilish....
cz im gonna be wednesday on halloween on wednesday...
get me???...
i meant being wednesday on halloween with The Scream mask n black dress on this wednesday halloween..
yo!i put A LOT of my compact powder to my face like the "seniman bujang lapok"
nyahaha!!!den i put the grey lipstick i bought...
it looks....AWESOME.
only tt the lipstick taste super yucky cz it's cheap...
it feels like im putting soft crayons on my lips.
well...i think it is crayons...
cz it's kinda elastic...
eww.
wadever laa...
with my knife im gonna kill...
KILL 'EM ALL!!!--metallica--
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA

u noe...since my sis's laptop crash.
dunno wad she do to my com....
grrrrr....irritating!
n did she show my pictures to my mum?
pls...i need privacy too.

2007-10-26T16:17:00.000-07:00

me & neechee in the bus...anis n huda going to board the tram...they are so pretty ^^

in the tram...

us!& me n anis...i was abouto yawn actually...

keep it a secret

yash...nyahaha...n me.YUCk.im so dark already...YUCk

i went into the foam pool n it reached my ankles.

so i guess it was okay when...GAHHHH...!

shana n uma pool me inside n i was flat on my back among the stupid foam

thx 4 nt getting my bloody hair wet.

it's alrdy so bad.[cant wait 4 next weekend!mayb i goin rebond my hair :D]

im wet,so we went into the sea n play.

it was so funny.wen shana decides to go underwater to cross over the rope wen she her life jacket got stuck.

seriously the life jacket is too big 4 me cz my head was stuck too n she was laughing.

i was laughing n trying to catch my breath wen a wave make me swallow the sea water.

gross...i was coughing like mad...

"we're looking so un-glam" nyahaha

it was fun.

bt i have to go...im sure they really have fun.

n by on monday,i hope i dun see u guys toasted.

the weather is freaking hot.

n our whole class are gonna date to go peace centre to buy halloween stuff!

weeeeeeeeee..........

i met him...

we took cable car...this is only a few pictures i upload...

the rest is in my PSP ^^

pls no dun bite me pls im a little kid help mummy yelps arghh

me & saint's baby neechee

baby neechee cud fly cz he got wings

daddy n baby

mummy & baby...

this photo reminds me of The Grease...

summer love >_< HA HA HA

.... :)

watch the sequence...together.den rockin'

look at each other... ...tadahhhH!haa!wadever...

trying out the indonesian mask...

hunney wan to try after me den the salesperson said cannot take picture i quickly snap one but---it's a moment too late

kissing vam saint on halloween

can i ride this with u n fly into space?

2007-10-25T05:39:00.000-07:00

so fast!it's thursday already...!
wdh!days zooming past i hardly could catch up with my good-enough stamina...
thx for the pink polo tee & the ring...
& HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY syg...
will celebrate w u tmr kayz...
in no mood to post summore....

i bought 3 new thnigs today!so happy..
m wearing my new emily 3/4 tmr

bt!my dearest class gonna come to sch on wed in costumes!
wee....
it's halloween.
on frank iero's bthdae....n faeezah's bthdae...
and also it's wednesday,so im going to be wednesday...
so...cant wait to see my other classmate come in in black withc,black...??i forgot what anis is going to be.barbie doll,cinderella,genie in the bottle[well, u shud jeanne!] dead sch girl....sailormoon.the hobbit fm lord of the rings n a bunny??!
haha!

get lost losers...
im getting so out of my mind

2007-10-21T18:59:00.001-07:00

boring & very very dry post.
might as well click the red X...now go on...

i hate mondays.im becoimng garfield-ly...
things to do
1)finish up indonesian essay
2)finish up greenberg essay
3)do 1 face 4 VE

2007-10-19T20:24:00.000-07:00

uma didnt came to sch ystd cz she got stomach flu..
omg.stomach flu is really bad cz i've got it once myself...
aft sch when to follow my Saint to jamming.
:) love the songs they make...
i'll keep on supporting!
weee....
<3
thanks for accompanying me buying tt french loaf n battery...
really ah...my family like to order buy things...
cz i oso sometimes order my sis buy 4 me sunkist juice & energy bars...

urghhh....
was on9 ystd jz to do my essay...
chat w yana & phantom.
miss yana.
im in 500 words for my NIE's essay yesterday...
phantom try to help me by giving me his philosophies.
uhnn....which is quite helpful;i shall reconsider it.
ahhh.... he's such a gay!
argued of when he n his sisters can come to my house for hari raya...

& also tt my sec sch friends planned go jln rayer next sunday...
n syg wan me join rayer with his friends...
im in confusion!
& is my dearest DAT1 goin to jln rayer ad weekend too???
i dunch noe...
bt today is fizza's open hse..
i doubt i cud go :(

anw,this 25th oct somebody's turning 18!
& on 26th im goin Sentosa for the sprts day...
we're gonna picnic together & they planned to bring rollerblades???
wad?i have one.bt im duhh-uh-lazy!
nvrmind...shall see the day.
& most of them wan to join the walk-a-jog.
oh my friends...u noe how much i hate excercising...
i told them to buy a pram especially for me...
[or mayb a comfy computer chair with rollers]
so they cud jz push me & i dun nd to walk-a-jog tt walk-a-jog...
n uma was sarcastically saying tt they would push me downward a hill & let go...
so i quickly shot back tt they have to push me UPhill first...
muahahaha...
n oh!ther's beachball.
at least im excited to play tt...
bt i kept thinking about Dodgeball,i told Anis...

hurrr...
point to take note of myself...
but one bottle of suntan lotion & mayb a beach hat.
emilina ad the beach.
psst...yash was asking me if the dinosaur girl will come to Sentosa with her boots...
i simply replied tt,tt it was for us to see on tt day itself...

2007-10-16T05:30:00.000-07:00

:D *smiling ever so wide...
watched Resident Evil with my datuk today
yeahh tt's faeezah's term.
anw,the movie was DAMN great la...
i wanna watch again!watch with my friends again...
^^
well,i have to agree with shana tt e ending sux...
i was begging & mumbling for a continuation...
if there is.maybe datuk say 2 or 3 more yrs later...

things to do...(today & tomorrow)
1)basic drawing....finish 2 page of comic strip!
2)finish one more face 4 visual element
3)buy new sketchbook for NIE[im left with 45 more pages] & ceramics[very cheap & thin one...]
4)plan for NIE[mayb inside the mrt ???]

*i wanna twist Mr Tan's head like in the Resident Evil....grrr...
ROAR!

--emilina allen poe
no CSI today!*smashes teevee...

2007-10-14T04:07:00.000-07:00

a continuation fm tmr...

cz ystd blogger had some problems so i cant dwld everything...
top is a video taken today...
the rampage of my bed by my little cousins & anak sedare...
hurhurhur... T_T

below is fizzy...
with my nee chee,polar bear & my bro's giraffe...

nyahaha....whatever...

my grandfather's brother's house...

he's sick...sigh!...time always catching up...

& i didnt know tt his wife is a chinese...

wdh?!i've been going to his house 4 16 yrs each yr,& i didnt know tt...

fucktard me...

my bro taking my big bro's bike....

while kak aisyah take car with us.

my bro dh syiok naik motor with my big bro...

haha...

& tt's e ketupat i learn to "ayyam" by hafizah...

hurr....nola...i do half-way...

den afttt hafizah do the last part...

:P heex...

so many homeworks...so gotta fly.

2007-10-13T04:00:00.000-07:00

this is my two baby!!!cute right?...

my babies going to grow up into a pretty girl & a handsome boy

nyahahaha...

me & athirah...she's going to be a radion DJ some day...

my 2 cousin & lil bro.coincidentally they wore the same color...

in my maternal grandparents house...

my brother & sis-in-law is in pink ad the front...

heex!.... ^^

my sis...

my babieee niza!....

he & his plasticine dinosaur...

2007-10-12T05:57:00.000-07:00

hey,today is a happy day...
bt this person keep on...
never mind...
it's really hard when someone try to tear u down,& ur're helpless.
it's like poison
:'(

2007-10-11T07:28:00.001-07:00

http://www.flashgames.de/index.php?onlinespiele=5373&todo=play

try this!it's EMOgotchi...
lol...
it will kill itself sooner or later.

2007-10-10T17:02:00.000-07:00

morning update ad 8 in the morning...
hmm...
today going NIE.i gave up on my copy painting alrdy...
done the "touch up" ystd.
ystd we went to newton 4 hist visual arts.
& ended up hanging out ad e 7/11 near e sch...

i researched 4 3hrs for the perfect 20th century artist for me;

& i found one!

he's name is George Ault,an American Painter...

& he killed himself from drowning...

bt i love his works!

gahhhh!!...

must search more about him hopefully ad e humongous NIE lib...

+_+"

den i ended up searching for Edgar Allen Poe[the dude u see below]

& ended up reading his works 4 another hr.

i think im growing cataracts or mayb eye-sight problems cz i nvr even look away fm my com screen.

& i've got my roaring headphones on

my mum was scolding me about me going to be deaf as i reach the old age...

sighh...

ystd ad home just suck a little..

:) Lost Souls.

Oh lost souls...

Never did thee chose the bright path

Rather thee take the lost route

Losing faith every second thee turned back to look--

How far thee had been lost in the woods.

God help ye poor souls.

Never take that path untold

2007-10-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

LENORE

Ah, broken is the golden bowl! the spirit flown forever!
Let the bell toll! -a saintly soul floats on the Stygian river -
And, Guy De Vere, hast thou no tear? -weep now or never more!
See! on yon drear and rigid bier low lies thy love, Lenore!
Come! let the burial rite be read -the funeral song be sung! -
An anthem for the queenliest dead that ever died so young -
A dirge for her, the doubly dead in that she died so young.

"Wretches! ye loved her for her wealth and hated her for her pride,
And when she fell in feeble health, ye blessed her -that she died!
How shall the ritual, then, be read? -the requiem how be sung
By you -by yours, the evil eye, -by yours, the slanderous tongue
That did to death the innocence that died, and died so young?"

Peccavimus; but rave not thus! and let a Sabbath song
Go up to God so solemnly the dead may feel no wrong!
The sweet Lenore hath "gone before," with Hope, that flew beside,
Leaving thee wild for the dear child that should have been thy bride -
For her, the fair and debonnaire, that now so lowly lies,
The life upon her yellow hair but not within her eyes -
The life still there, upon her hair -the death upon her eyes.

Avaunt! tonight my heart is light. No dirge will I upraise,
But waft the angel on her flight with a paean of old days!
Let no bell toll! -lest her sweet soul, amid its hallowed mirth,
Should catch the note, as it doth float up from the damned Earth.
To friends above, from fiends below, the indignant ghost is riven -
From Hell unto a high estate far up within the Heaven -
From grief and groan to a golden throne beside the King of Heaven."

omg omg!

i really reeally wished i got Allen's brains...

or i want to be his daughter!!!

wow!he's my freaking idol now!...

woahh...

haa hahh!

he's the birth of Lenore,the cute living dead girl & also Emily...

he rocks

2007-10-09T05:16:00.000-07:00

so today is ceramics...!

done the transformation of my monster plant alrdy.

went & watch Balls Of Fury with dani today & den

we went to ochard to see the comic store

tt's where i bought Nee Chee!!!

lovey dovey kitty ^^

nyahaha...

love it a lot.

jz got home fm my grandma's house

b4 tt i took a picture of the sky outside my room.

gosh...it was the most beautiful sky i've seen.

it's slow blue on the skies,bt as it goes down,it runs green..

and den orange to yellow to red to purple as it reached the horizons of the buildings...

& my dad painted my room finish for me ^^

ended up w pink & red.

i hate the pink,bt once again,was also inspired by this room they makeover into emily style.

& the walls have pink.

so...whatever.

i cnat wait for the 2 mths hols so i can paint a own wall mural on the wall o my room.

today lotsa funny stuff happened.

it's laughter in alvin's class though everyone's stressed up with their own work.

yash was making my stomach hurts...

& ystd uma fall on her butt as suv pulled her chair.

the funniest part is uma shouted the word "Qibai!" in mr Tan's class...

hohoho...

cya

2007-10-08T06:08:00.000-07:00

i blow the pastel flakes...
& im nt suppose to blow it,cz i'll end up breathing it in & eventually die.
hurhurhurr...
mrs kay gt once told us this artist who died bcz of the paint he use.
most of the paint contains lead in it.
this is wad called a "artist hazard"
same with all professions...being a scientist risks blowing up ur laboratory,
being a chef risks burning ur hands with hot oil or boiling water....

feeling psychotic now.
till here...

*this is Cokelat vidoes.wondering wad's Cokelat?it's an Indonesian band[also the first rock band] i was crazy about from pri 5 till sec 2.i only listen to their songs...they're SO primary school like to me...bt i still love them ^^*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1EpMNZjQZi0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7WCV6_0rF4&mode=related&search=

2007-10-06T19:59:00.000-07:00

hurting yourself is not the resolution...

i've waited & hold on...
& now i shall make a wish:
god,please dun seperate us anymore...

2007-10-04T05:30:00.000-07:00

okay2!!!finally i've dwld The Damned song tt got stuck in my head ad imeem!
so...listen to it![dun read the lyrics first]

was really frustrated by this girl who commented one of my very old videos...
it was a video of me & uma ad Toy'R'Us trying out the strange microphone
where u can chg ur voice into a robot or an alien...
we were making a fool out o ourselves...
i do admit it was dumb.
so e girl commented "that was dumb"
i was...PISSED.
so i commented back
"i never asked you to look at my videos.so just keep ur comments in ur butt.& anw,it's not meant for e public to see.so...goodbye!"
urghhh...
was i childish?
i think i am!*kicks myself*
gahh!!!!!!!!!...
who gives a fffff----err---fish?[inspired by alvin]

back to The Damned...
the last part when the singer was yowling kept ringing in my head
yes.it was ringing.
i can still hear it clearly.
it somehow drove me a little crazy?bt ad e same tym nice.
i didnt noe tt my mind can be a Mp3 player.
mayb a spoilt one.cz it only play Plan 9 Channel 7 song,the yowling part,repeatedly..

today basically do nail art in NIE instead of copy painting.
tmr basic drawing still got stuff to do.
bt i'll not miss e psyhic show ad Art central today 10pm.
it's The Unexplained....
shall go off now...

The End.
is near...

p.s:mel msg me.she missed me!..i missed her! :)

MCR!MCR!MCR!MCR!MCR!MCR!MCR!MCR!MCR!MCR!
i shall go.never miss it for the WORLD!right infrnt o the stage...
muahahahaaa!!!!hurhurhur....!!!wahahahhaha...nyehaaha...

& DREAMTHEATER IS COMING TOO!

2007-10-03T06:40:00.000-07:00

im back.
listen to this SONG!
by...THE DAMNED!

"Plan 9 Channel 7"

She plays her mouth into a smile
And offers that he stay a while
Two hearts that beat as one
And eyes that hardly ever saw the sun
Hollywood babbles on
She lays a wreath of lilies on his grave
His flame gone along with the love he never gave
Not to be seduced by those red lips
Two dimensional comic clips
Hollywood babbles on
on and on and on and on and...

Channel 7, with shades of grey
Too close but two worlds away
Plan 9, hello may
Too close but two worlds away
They say

Step into the night

She plays her mouth into a smile
And offers that he stay a while
Two hearts that beat as one
And eyes that hardly ever saw the sun
Hollywood babbles on
She lays a wreath of lilies on his grave
His flame gone along with the love he never gave
Not to be seduced by those red lips
Two dimensional comic clips
Hollywood babbles on
on and on and on and on and...

Channel 7, with shades of grey
Too close but two worlds away
Plan 9, hello may
Too close but two worlds away
They say

2007-10-03T05:12:00.000-07:00

fri's break fast...

okay...so this is today.

wore top black,below red.

uma top red,below black...

hurhurhurrr...inverted.

uhnn...lol

& 2nd is me trying out Anis's high heel..

tt's all.im feeling blatant now.no mood for anything...

Northward

The wind is cold and heavy
And storms are in the sky
Our path across the nordland
Goes higher and more high

To left the sea we came from
To right the white hills with no tree
The wind is growing colder
And shivering are we

We drag with stiffening fingers
Our swords and up the hill
The path is steep and tangled
But leads to battles still

Dor firn i guinar.

Refrain
Farewell now mountain vale and plain
Farewell now wind and frost and rain
And mist and cloud and heavens air
Ye star and moon so blinding fair

Farewell now blade and bloom and grass
That see the changing season pass
Farewell sweet earth and northern sky
Forever blessed but here we die

Dor firn i guinar.

hmmm...wad's Dor firn i guinar???...anybody?

2007-10-01T16:26:00.000-07:00

hmm...
ystd reached hm 930..
so frustrated with the 34 bus driver.
damn slow.
even with no driving license i think i can drive faster[n crash]
was in the bus 4 an hr ride with my new headphone.
my ears nearly bled wen i reached my house.
wen the damn bus drove past all the terminals,
i cant help bt feel emo!haa!...wth?
hurhurhur...uhnn...

while waiting 4 the bus,i hung ard 27 cz uma n far taking it.
den earlier b4....ok2..let's be open.
ppl 'farts' rite?
well,i accidentally fart wen i was talking to uma earlier on.
bt she didnt hear it[i thought she did]
so i told her tt i fart.
den wen standing ad e 27 ther,
uma say something about wad i did earlier on just nw sarcastically
[she meant the farting incident la...]
far was snickering
so i say "ya la!i fart just now whie talking to uma.so what?everyone farts!"
the problem is,ther's this malay guy bhind uma,
n he heard wad i said.
his eyes kinda buldge out a bit wen he heard tt
and far n uma burst into fits of choking laughter
im like,"oh well,wad a freakkk"

[back to in the buss....]
i chg my mind back & started to listen to other songs..
so i managed to reach home.
i couldnt sleep ard 11...
so much in my mind to think & reminiscene.
i got up fm my bed n color my basic drawing swamp monster.
turned in ad 1230am.n realised tt i've been up for 16hrs today[i woke up ad 8]
n now slept 5hrs.
[which is considered surprising for a big sleeper like me]

today n ystd was 'lazy-to-dress' day.
tmr is Wednesday.Wednesday for me too...
if u get wad i mean by the 2nd Wednesday...
haha...wtf?im trying to confuse u.

urrghhh...so wen i come bac home fm ceramics,
im gonna GONNA GONNA finish up my copy painting!!!1
i will not get the exactly the same color-bt wdh...
it can kiss my ass la!...
it will be sort of a poor forging of money notes...
at least it "looks" the same...
duhhh...

GAHHHH!!!

tt's my update

now Get Lost.

2007-09-30T18:23:00.000-07:00

Dreaming is the perception of sensory images during sleep, in a sequence which the sleeper/dreamer usually perceives more as an apparent participant than an observer. Dreaming is stimulated by the pons and mostly occurs during the REM phase of sleep.

People have proposed many hypotheses about the functions of dreaming. Sigmund Freud postulated that dreams are the symbolic expression of frustrated desires that had been relegated to the subconscious, and he used dream interpretation in the form of psychoanalysis to uncover these desires. Scientists have become skeptical about the Freudian interpretation, and place more emphasis on dreaming as a requirement for organization and consolidation of recent memory and experience. See Freud:The Interpretation of Dreams

James Allan Hobson's and Robert McCarley's activation synthesis theory proposes that dreams are caused by the random firing of neurons in the cerebral cortex during the REM period. According to the theory, the forebrain then creates a story in an attempt to reconcile and make sense of the nonsensical sensory information presented to it, hence the odd nature of many dreams

call me a freak
but i got a nightmare,and i need scientific answers...

2007-09-30T05:59:00.000-07:00

hmmm...
i went to johor today cz my mum wanna buy some hari raya kuehsss & kerepekss
i ended up buying 1408 & Evan Almighty DVDs & a hoody.
will be watching 1408 ad nite ltr.
hehh.gore.fun.scary...

& this quite...obese malaysian girl called me lion.
cz of my mane.
nyahahaaa...i dunno wad to say.
it was funny in a way.
bt all i noe is her fast is not counted...
i was really refraining myself from swearing her a buffalo under my breath just for fun.
:X bad bad bad *shooks head*
it's so hard to keep to urself about all this things...
at least i managed to hide my claws n my fangs.
love to tore down her fleshy ribs....
mayb i can become the lion in the Adam's Family.
hear me fuckin'--
ROAR!!!
suckas.

now Get Lost.

2007-09-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT I BOUGHT JUST NOW???

hehehehehh....

an emily comic book n emily sling bag...
T_T nyahaha...
e 3rd comic book got a full whole page of stickers
will buy e 1st n 2nd n 4th soon ;P
and the sling bag has an outer cloth of intricate designs...like a lace.
plus ther's 3 badges to go with it...
WOO HOO!!!
n i give my parents money and they were all smiley alrdy... hehee

anis went to highlight her hair n huda rebond aft class today...
tt's y im like so freaking lonely la on9 on my own...
usually anis will b ther being all bored too.
so we usually chatted n do our art work ad e same time...
ANIS!...im bored!help!
cant wait to see u n huda!rmb take pix k?
nyahahaa...

researched on my basic drawing and visual element...

i discovered new stuff today,very excited to start on my work.

2007-09-27T06:05:00.000-07:00

so...i've got nothing much to post,
so i'll play anis's game...

RULES:each game player of this game starts by giving 10 things about themselves.
people who get tagged need to write in their blog as well as state the rules clearly.
In the end you need to chose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
After you do that,leave them each a comment letting them know that you have tagged them n read your blog!

so..here goes.

1)im still a nerd/geek now[a friend told me im geek last time..]lol
2)i wished im borned like Albert Einstein or some smarties...
3)im not really sociable to be truthful.
4)im interested in the unexplained[UFOs,the Holocaust,death,etc etc]
5)i still keep my dinosaur pillow which was with me since primary 2.[nyahahahahaaa]
6)i just painted my room red.
7)i love gore...and think gore...like Wednesday,Lenoire,and Stewie...
8)i love my chemical romance the moment i heard "Helena"
9)i look normal[2 eyes,one nose,one mouth,two hands,two legs,with 5 fingers/toes each] bt my mind isn't
10)i 'hate' living in singapore.i got no sense of patriotism even if u guys taught me social studies.it was a waste of my time!dammit

-shashah
-shahira
-fish
-azimah
-karen
-jiahwei
-zie
-hussin
-haslinda
-haziqah

will tag them tmr...Guten Abend!

2007-09-26T05:48:00.001-07:00

Land Of The Dead

Where forest stream went through the wood
And silent all the stens there stood
Of tall trees, moveless, hanging dark
With mottled shadows on their bark

As faint as deepest sleeper's breath
An echo came as cold as death
Long are the paths, of shadow made
Where no foot's print is ever laid

Refrain
No moon is there, no voice, no sound
Of beating heart; a sigh profound
Once in each age as each age dies
Alone is heard. Far, far it lies
The Land of Waiting where the Dead sit,

In their thought's shadow, by no moon lit

Choir
Upon the plain, there rushed forth and high
Shadows at dead end of night and mirrored in the skies

Far far away beyond might of day
And there lay the land of the dead of mortal cold decay

3rd post today!^^

2007-09-26T05:25:00.001-07:00

http://www.summoning.info/
OK2!!!
this is the new band im CRAZY about...
i know tt not many[mayb no one] like this particular kind of music.
it's actually melodic death metal by Summoning.
an Austria band

i've always loved this kind of dark melodic stuff...

like Cradle Of Filth.

though...it's quite intriguing???
cz their songs sumhow support satan..?
n im listening to it.

...of course i wont go n worship n stuff la.

i really like how it calms me down.

today class was okay.

i love mrs kay's lesson!!!

though a lot like want to sleep...

mrs eno class's is not my favorite though...

blahh...

thz 2 fizza for tt idea of chging e clock 2 15mins earlier

n uma 4 climbing e chair to chg it.

was laughing away ad me n uma's Alienated-warped faces...

will post it in e next post though :)

2007-09-25T17:40:00.000-07:00

urghhh!!!

where's my 800 bucks!where's my 800bucks!!??dammit.

my hands r itching to buy all this things...

shoes (S$72-US$48)

jeans(S$87-US$58)

top(S$75-US$75)

total:$234 *GASPS*

but i NEED THE SHOE!

who got paypal??!

i shall not buy anything else but a shoe,and a black buckle studded sling bag...